laurajeannette

Whew. It’s been a couple of weeks since I have last posted. My life has been soo busy.

Last week my boyfriend and I both graduated college, on separate days mind you, plus we had a awards banquet ceremony because Smarty Pants Anthony won a academic award. That cleared Wed, Thursday and Friday. Then, on the weekend, we volunteered as camp counsellors for a local church camp, which was a weekend long, which cleared Saturday and Sunday night for us too! This week was Anthony’s sister’s grade 8 graduation, so we have been a very busy couple!

AND DIETING HAS BEEN SOOO HARD THROUGHOUT ALL OF THIS! But I am happy to say that I have managed to not gain during all these celebrations, which all involved three course meals! If you know me, and how much I loooooooooooove food, that is a big defeat!!

Anyhow, I have revised some goals for myself for the summer. I’ve decided on trying to lose ten pounds a month for the next four monthes! By September, I will have lost an additonal forty pounds to what I’ve done so far, if everything goes as planned. I started this kind of late, missing out on most of June, but I am still shooting for the sky and aiming for a ten pound loss by the end of this month. I figure even if I am short a pound or two at the end of June, maybe in July I can take it off.

I know it might seem a little unrealistic, but part of me feels like it’s not and I really could do this if I showed a little will power. I have a friend who has undergone gastric by pass surgery six weeks ago and has loss 68 pounds which is soo crazy!!! Very unhealthy, too. But I figure if she could do that in 6 weeks, shooting for ten pounds a month probably isnt THAT unrealistic.

And if I dont make it?

Well, let’s be honest, any loss is still a LOSS! Anywhere lower than what I am now is still a stepping stone to where I want to be!

So, come August when I feel like I want to give up, remind me of this post and how confident I was before!! Ha ha!

I worked out for forty minutes today and feeeel GREAT!

Ok. So, obviously I have fallen off the healthy lifestyle train, and have probably gained about five pounds back BOO.

I feel like I am on the yo-yo diet, losing and gaining these specific five pounds. I’ve had a busy week, three funerals just this past week and so my life has kinda been upside down. I’ve been eating comfort food all week and haven’t even thought about excercising. It’s terrible, I know, but I am back on track and am going to try STICKING WITH IT!

It’s just so stressful sometimes, makes it hard for me to do everything and still feel energized to make healthy foods and find time for excercise.

That’s about I have to say. I feel like I have failed myself.

I excercised today for forty mins today and have been eating healthy

My friends, my boyfriend and I are sort of having a mini vacation this weekend and taking a day to go camping. We are all pretty excited but it will be a struggle for me to eat right and still have fun. Camping means smore’s, roasted marshmellows, hotdogs, chips, burgers, drinks…… Like wow, how many temptations could I have in just one day! Since most of you don’t know me well, I’ll tell you now that my biggest problem is food! I just love to eat!

So I thought about this and thought of specific things I could do to limit my caloric intake.

One: Skip pop! Just drink water during the day to keep me hydrated.

Two: No alcoholic beverages before say 8:00 at night… No alcoholic beverages at all would probably be better,  I know, but I’m not sure if I am willing to give that up haha. I say before 8:00 because let’s be honest if I didnt give myself a time limit, I’d likely be drinking all day long in the sun otherwise. Hahahah….

Three: I’m bringing fruit. My other friends are bringing you know, marshmellows, pop, chips… If the only way I’m going to have healthier options is to bring them myself! That is a responsibility I’m going to have to take on!

Four: Plan on some sort of excercise. I’m thinking bringing the bikes or going for a nice long walk with Anthony, even if it’s not a high fat burning excercis, it’s still probably better than nothing!
Hmmm. Those seem like reasonable mini goals for my camping trip that won’t require so much sacrifice that I would be losing out on the fun. Overall, I am pretty excited about this camping trip, I’m planning on getting lots of sun, and relaxxing most of the day. We went to this same spot two years ago and it was super nice. They have some ponds, a nice mini beach (though it’s too cold for that this weekend) and places to go fishing or whatever. I’m living in a city right now because it’s closer to the University I attend, so some fresh air sounds great!!

Here’s a funny story about last year’s camping excursion that might make you laugh:

So my best friend and I are both over weight. She gets it into her head that it would be fun to do some paddleboating. Our boyfriend’s were off fishig and we had nothing better to do so we wandered off to the store to rent the boats. So we pay for the boats, and a skinny, lanky teenager hands us back our change. He must be about fourteen, and likely weighs no more than eighty pounds. He heads off to get the life jackets and brings them back to us. He holds them out, “Here you go.” Our mouth’s drop. These jackets were maybe size medium if anything. My best friend says, ” Uhhh… do you have anything a little bigger?” He shakes his head. “Sorry thats all we got” So we laugh and put them on. LOL they didnt even do up. So we are laughing about how dumb we look in our undersized life jackets and he leads us to the the paddleboat on the shore of the little lake. We both hop in and sit there, . The boy starts pushing the boat off of the shore. It doesnt budge. He stands up, corsses his arms, and hums, “Hmmmm…..” Determined, he gets on his knees and using every ounce of energy he has, he pushes with full force, eyes buldging, face beat red. He sighs, and stands up again, scratching his head. He kicks the boat a couple of times! He says, “Well…. that is that I suppose.” And walks away!!! LOL !!!!!!!! The two of us still laugh about this memory. So my best friend gets out, pushes us off the shore, wades through the water, and climbs in. The poor guy! There was probably 400lbs or more in that paddleboat!

LOL! This memory is always gunna make me laugh. What has happened has happened and there’s nothing I can do. BUT, in all seriousness, how sad! One more example of WHY I NEED TO LOSE THIS WEIGHT!!!

I’m wondering if any of you have any other ideas on how I can continue to lose weight and have fun this weekend. Looking forward to your input!

I’m finding that having a great support system really helps me as I struggle to lose weight.

My boyfriend Anthony is my biggest supporter. We have been together nearly five years and we live together. He has been by my side this whole journey, and not only does he get to see the great results, but sadly he has been there during the times when I’ve been less than …. successful to say the least I find that soemtimes losing weight makes me feel great! I feel so energetic, healthy and light. Other times, I am sooo moody, especially right before I binge. I am not really a moody person in nature, but when I’m dieting I sometimes feel like I am soo grumpy I dont even want to be around myself! Unfortunately, Anthony has been by me during those times too, and I just wish things didnt have to be like that! I love him soo much, he doesn’t deserve to be a target of my moodiness. I am sooo lucky to have him, I thank God everyday to be blessed with someone so kind, compassionate and supportive. Since I know he will end up reading this, THANK YOU BABY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!

My other supporters are my Mom, who battles this same battle I do, My Dad, and my beautiful friend Renee who is also going through this same weight loss struggle. She has been very successful and to me is simply nothing less than inspirational ! It’s nice to have people in your life who struggle with the same things you struggle with, and understand your battles. Having people to talk with makes all the difference.

Lastly, I belong to two support groups, TOPS a local wieght loss group that I attend and now Buddyslim. I’ve only been on BuddySlim for a few days and already the support has been soooo motivating. I love coming on here, browsing profiles and seeing other’s weight loss success stories because it reminds me when I’m down that results WILL come !!! Maybe not right this second, but hard work is rewarded Basically, I just want to thank everyone for reaching out to me and accompanying me during this journey. All support is appreciated

Above- Me and my beautiful and supportive boyfriend,who has been with me through all the good, and all the bad. What a sweetheart.

I am new to BuddySlim. I am twenty years old, live in Canada and have struggled with my weight for what seems like FOREVER. This is what I tend to thin of as my “2nd Weight Loss Journey.”  I think of it this way because sadly, this is my second attempt at reaching my goal weight, something I did about 6 years ago (I had lost about 50 lbs) but had had gained it all +plus more back. I started seriously changing my lifestyle about three monthes ago. The GOOD NEWS: I am on a downward slope, and have lost 20 pounds so far. The BAD NEWS: It is becoming more and more of a struggle to battle this. I am finding it hard to be motivated more and more. I feel like I should be doing it faster than I am (and for fact- I know I could be if I only had some willpower!) I know ALOT about dieting, and nutrition, as I have been doing it forever, and I belong to an international weight loss support group called TOPS [ Take Off Pounds Sensibly]. I’m hoping by joing BuddySlim I can find some other’s who are serious about losing weight and that we can support each other through the good & bad of the “World Of Dieting”.

The thing I struggle with the most personally is the idea of getting back on track after an “oops.” Realistically, we are not going to be able to eat healthy all the time, or excercise the way we should every single day of our lives. The trick is, I believe, making your weight loss a priority, and not letting one “oops” become a downward trend. I fnid, persaonally, I tend to think things like, “Well… since I’ve already screwed my diet up for today, I guess I’ll have a little more. What difference will it make?” We all KNOW the difference it would make to go jog for an hour, but there is a massive difference between knowing and acutally doing. This is what I currently struggle with. Sometimes I feel like one slip-up means it’s all over, and I end upgiving up- and turning one small extra peice of pizza as an excuse to let myself go on a 4-5 day binge. Thus, instead of gaining one pound and losing it again in three days, I gain SIX and end up feeling terrible [sick, lazy,fat & betrayed!! by no one other than myself].

I have come to the realization that this is going to be something I have to fight for the rest of my life! I am only 20!! I think I am ready to commit. I think I’m prepared to not only lose the weight, but also to MAINTAIN it.

I am a very honest person. I won’t pretend like I’ve never binged, like this is something easy, or that I don’t know the consequences of my actions. I’d love to get to know some REAL people who struggle the same way I do, and build a mutual friendship based on support and encouragement. If you ever need someone to talk to, advice, or have questions, I will try very hard to be supportive, give answers that are true to my knowledge, and even offer my researching skills to help answer questions I may not know the answer to.

Looking forward to getting to know you !

xx Laura